Sunday, September 11, 2011

When he finally made up his mind!

She turned around to face he who tapped her shoulder...
would you dance with me? That was the only thing she heard from him before she sank in her memories.
She was sitting on the grass when he sat in front of her with his hand extended out to reach her's. "would you dance with me?"
Holding her hands and dancing was like a dream, it was her first dance ever! Heart is bouncing, eyes can't describe what she's feeling! Time passed by so quick, its 2 am and they are still dancing looking at each other in disbelieve.
Things went on so quick, to her she was the happiest, as for him, by time he realized what he was putting himself into. A relationship? responsibility? Someone who's far away!!! how did I let that happen?
So many issues in her life, his existence in her life was a bless, as she always thought about him whenever she faced an obstacle in her life-though he lived continents away- just the thought of him brought her happiness.
few months later things got a bit complicated in her life, and she let her problems get to her in a minute, that's when the table was flipped on her, and she didn't realize that by sharing her inner thoughts with him she was ending it all!
When she needed him to stand by her, is when he let go of her! At some point she thought that made herself clear, when she said I'd wait for you and stand by you at all times. She tried to hold on, for along time she waited and lived on very few memories they once shared! Was that 3 or 4 years ago!
She finally took a decision to let go of he who was relieved by walking on her. She lived with pain for years, hoping he would just look back at a good memory they had in a very short time! or a good feeling they shared! She never received any respond back, not even a thank you for a birthday gift, she handmade for him!!!
So many memories and thoughts went through her head the second she saw him.
Do I know you? That was her response to the one who she put her life on hold waiting for.
When he finally realized how he felt for her, it was just about time for her to move on and start a new life with a real person, who valued her heart.
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You can only do so much to keep the person you want in your life. Being honest and freely sharing all your thoughts and feelings with him or her is the purpose behind any relationship! If we can't keep our chests wide and hearts open for those who we care for, then what's the point!

Time is too short.


Sunday, September 4, 2011

Because of this heart of mine: No regrets...

Because of this heart of mine: No regrets...: To the friend who walked on my heart, when I mostly needed her To the friend who I tightly held on to, while she looked away from me alon...

No regrets...


To the friend who walked on my heart, when I mostly needed her
To the friend who I tightly held on to, while she looked away from me
along time ago, she forgot about me, for years and years my heart was a witness
to the pain I endured, from whom I considered the closest to me
Today she came back asking me, whether or not I can hold her hand throughout her day..
To her I say, here's my response to you
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you walked away with your own decision
never looked back or reconsidered
the friend I am never asked why or whatsoever
I only held on but never went better
I tried and tried
but who cared
if all you said was so what and whatever
I took my time, and the wind blew you away off my heart
and never looked back on a memory we once shared together
I closed my book on that page
and threw it in the middle of the ocean
never till now thought what happened to the book
that kept me and you in it together, but not forever
in a set of pictures
and what used to be a stack of endless priceless memories
years went on and I've moved on
for you to come today and say where are you
for you to look back, and ask "would you reconsider me?"
to actually think back, think that I kept you in my heart all that time!
after what you've done?
all i can say is that I forgive you
but more than that I'm glad that you no longer engage that place in me
and that my heart no longer belongs to you
you ripped my heart apart and never thought once, how I am doing
or what went wrong!
Today you look back to the friend you pushed away
without any doubt I turn around and say go to where you ran to be
to start a whole new life without me
here, right in the same place I stood before
wishing to see you happy one day..
now I see my wish coming true
and without being sorry, I now tell you
hey you might want me to reconsider, and whatsoever,
but let me before you take a decision,
share my current feelings with you
I have reached that level that I sought forever
where I have no regrets and I don't care
whether or not, you come back or never recall my name forever.. .